me and the drinks - trying in english today

Well, I had the first alcoholic amnesia, it's very strange to me, a person who likes got the control, when the facts mixed in my brain and I don't know really what happened i'm felling like a very stupid person, and at least I fucked my dad's car, now, very great, isn't it?

And I ask to myself "why I can't say no to any friends or situations?"
Ok, I admit, I like drink and the drunked feeling, but I prefer to be happy or funny without that.